Too sad to feel....

I got a message from my mom in the states today. My dog, Princess, our precious black lab who we have had for 12 years, meaning she is anywhere between 15 and 17 years old, has systematic cancer and multiple organ failure. Some things are too hard to watch unfold while you are right next to the problem. When you are out of country, it feels as though they are not real, but when you think about it, the pain hits as if you were right next to them. I knew she wouldn´t make it until I got back, but the feeling of her having cancer makes me relive the death of my other dog as well as the feeling of letting her fall from my grip as well. I´m greatful to have the support system that I do here in Ecuador, and some amazing dogs that would be willing to take me out of the thoughts--even if just for a moment. Princess, I wish I could hug you again. I love you girly!